Selfless Service

February 14, 2015

This is one of the practices of the Agape International Spiritual Center. I kind of “got it”, to an extent, but not as much as the other practices – meditation, affirmative prayer, study, fellowship. It was kind of like, “Oh, so I’m going to help fold up the chairs after service, bring a dish to the potluck, etc.?”

Although, when I’ve done things like that, it was really great! But then, it seems like something deeper is needed to be a real practice.

Then, I got it! Everything I do is selfless service! Especially my transformational career! It’s all about my consciousness while I’m doing it!

And then, I really felt a shift!

I’ve been working more on my transformational stuff lately: recordings for the new album, video-recording sections of the new interactive concert event, writing the first draft of the book…and really feeling it more, expressing more full-out, and really enjoying it so much more!

A lot less of the former “work” mindset, i.e., “I want to do this career thing, so I’ve got to do this, and this, and I have to get this done!” Ugh…

But that still creeps in from time to time. And then the other thing – the “I’m not quite ready or good enough, but I’m working on it” mindset! Maybe someday….Yikes!

But when I make this shift – to selfless service (!), I let go of trying to attain something, of trying to become something, of trying to get something (e.g., acceptance, financial reward, recognition), and completely adopt the mindset of “I’m GIVING!”


And proceeding – creating, expressing – from that mindset of giving, the flow of Divine Inspiration is completely opened! There is no more holding back; there is no more wondering if I’m doing this well enough, or trying to do so.

And when that letting go and that complete openness happens, divine creativity happens! Full-on, authentic, feeling-filled expression takes place! And a real gift is given! One that, because of its authentic feeling, and because it’s shot straight from the One, has to be fully given, and fully received by those it is given to!!!!!!

I think I’ve got it now! Time to create!!!!!!



February 14, 2015

Yesterday, I’d been thinking about a situation in my life, and how to proceed. Rather conflicted, going back and forth over options, decisions, pros and cons…


Went to bed. At some point – don’t remember if it was before falling asleep or upon waking up, got a great realization and practiced it:

Spirit’s guided my life so well all along – many, many times when I couldn’t see how things were really unfolding perfectly! So why not let go of this trying to figure things out and make things happen, and surrender it all to Spirit?!!!

So I did!!!

So it was a great deepening of my knowing the meaning of surrender! Not a giving up, not an admission of defeat. Not at all!

This surrender is about giving my life and my situations to Something Higher – to a Greater Knowing, with an infinitely wider perspective and Power than my surface mind!!!

Feels so right! Feels so good! I know I am on the right track to the best!

And so it is!!!


I Do This To Express the Infinite!

October 9, 2010


Played a gig last night. Some holdovers from my past attitudes about playing music: “Oh, I’m cool!”; “People are gonna dig me when I play this!”; etc. – i.e., coming from the ego.


Realized an “attitude adjustment” is in order: in fact, it looks like my attitude in playing music has fallen behind my attitude in other activities! I realized the better attitude to take is “I do this for the glory of God!” Then, I realized that I want to take this attitude in everything I do!


Rather a traditional wording, but the right spirit. Thinking of what Rev. Michael said during the streaming Agape class, his usual emphasis on us being here to express the “Love-Intelligence that governs the universe”.


In meditation this morning, worked with the words, “I’m here to express the Infinite”, and a modified version of my chant: “Infinite Oneness, Infinite Life” (etc.).




I don’t play music, get buff, have a relationship with a woman, etc., etc., to feel good, show how cool I am, get acceptance, etc. I do EVERYTHING I do to express the Infinite! I’m here to fulfill God’s desire for creativity, for expression, through and as me!


Wow, I can’t wait to see how this is going to radically affect how I look at and do everything! I’m feeling the positive vibes, the “incredible lightness of being”, and the big smile on my face already!!!



Giving – A New Way of Feeling About It

January 8, 2010

I’ve been doing a lot of studying of materials from the Agape International Spiritual Center – an online class, and several audiobooks by Rev. Michael Bernard Beckwith. It’s really sinking in, and I’m feeling a lot of great changes happening!

One thing that’s mentioned a lot is “we are here to give our gifts”. Playing a jazz gig tonight, I decided to play with that attitude.

More than ever before, I really felt it! It was a new way to feel about giving, and a much more joyous, empowering one. Before, giving felt “nice”, like “the right thing to do”, “a higher way of living”, etc. Now, playing music with the intention to give, it felt like an acknowledgment that I am empowered, that I am capable, that I am whole, that I have something to give, that I am “overflowing” with good, so I have plenty to spare, and share!

With this feeling, I also felt that I’m beginning to really understand abundance principles, like the Law of Circulation. When I give – when I act from the attitude of giving – I’m declaring to the Universe, “I have- I’m able to give”, and the Universe responds by giving to me. No matter whether I’m giving a lot or a little – by giving, I’m participating in the flow, so I’m in it, a part of it, and the good flows from me, and back to me!


Assurance of the Right Way

January 4, 2010

Went to sleep 1/3/10, after a wonderfully deep affirmative prayer / meditation / visioning session, in which I experienced a profound release and surrender to Spirit, and then “caught” the vision that my spiritual career is to be based on letting go of the surface mind and completely connecting with and focusing on Spirit’s guidance. (So I knew I’d probably awaken to something pretty good!).

Woke up 1/4, with a strong assurance: the paradigm for my work, and for my entire life (!), is definitely set and clear! Every choice, every direction, and every action – indeed, every moment – is now based on Spirit’s guidance!

So this means: no more planning what I “can do”, based on what others have done (although I will still check them out for inspiration!); no more deciding and proceeding based on “what’s the best thing to do” in my career, or life. EVERYTHING, ALL THE TIME, comes from my connection- my oneness – with Spirit: always looking to THAT direction, with everything from planning to deciding whether to accept or decline, pursue or not, to the actual doing of the creative work, etc.

Now the nagging thought, “How am I going to do this? “ (with so many options available, esp. in terms of my transformational career, and continuing spiritual education) is settled: I will let go of all the surface mind chatter, and “tune in” to Spirit, to get that guidance that is always perfectly right.

Doing this, I am assured that my career path, and my life, is unfolding in the utmost beautiful, perfect way, and that all the actions and directions I choose, and the way in which I “do my thing’ is the absolute best, is perfect!!

This is a complete assurance that my live events, my recordings, my writings, my day-to-day (moment-to-moment) interactions – everything – are completely based on that spiritual connection, and are therefore right, deep, inspired, and inspiring!


I Am That!!

December 24, 2009

Inspired by a statement in Michael Bernard Beckwith’s book, “Spiritual Liberation”” – “Realize that you are an individualized expression of the one life of Spirit that has become your very own Self”- I got a realization of the big difference a seemingly small tweak in terminology can make.

I’d already made the transition from the old “me here, God up there” concept to “God’s everywhere, including in me” many years ago. Still there was a sense of separation: “I want to commune with the Source”; even “God and I are one”, while affirming unity, still feels like it’s talking about 2 separate entities.

But “I am That”! “I am Spirit”! “My essence is God”! “I am made from God”! There is no separation- although I am not the totality of God (by any means), I (and you and everything) am (we are) It!! (And “Thou art That”!)

In trying to describe this feeling, the parental terminology came up: “God the Father”; “Mother-Father God”. Of course, this can bring up the old anthropomorphic concept, when taken anywhere-near literally; but felt, instead, it’s seen as a metaphor, which describes the feeling, the realization, that we are “made of God-stuff”, and the unity with God, without barriers, can be sort of likened to that of a parent with its child: an inseparable genetic and emotional / love-based connection. The feeling of an unbreakable family bond, something constant, etc.- but even more connected than that. Again, this is a metaphor, trying to describe an experience of God. As Bishop John Shelby Spong says, we cannot define God, but we can describe our experiences of God…

So we are describing this unity, this always-open communication (and communion). Another useful metaphor (which also goes along with modern science) is the communication between different parts of the body, like the brain and the eye, for example (both of which, along with all parts, and all cells, it has now been shown, have intelligence). So God and I (and you and everything) are parts of the whole (and the whole, of course is all God!), and there is constant connection and communication between all of these.

Aha! So God is all, and I am a part of that All! Not one with It; not connected to It- a part of It!

So, what’s the point? The point is, I’m not (we’re not) sitting here, separate from God, working toward communication and a feeling of unity. I am (we are) a part of God, inseparable, indivisible, always! So that omniscience, omnipotence, omnipresence, and omniaction is always here, and no effort is required to “get it”. Joy! I am (we are) always fulfilled!!!


You Already Know It All!

December 22, 2009

A popular term in spirituality and related happenings is “it resonated with me”. It’s that feeling you get when hearing or reading something that says, “Yeah, that’s right. I can relate to that.” etc.

It occurred to me that these things that resonate with us are things we already know at some level- like the level of the super conscious mind, the Infinite Universal Mind, common to everyone, etc. Like that enlightenment that we already have, but don’t always realize.

So the introduction to the book I’m working on will say, “You already know this…this book is just a reminder to remember it” !

We already have everything we need!