Had a “dark night of the soul” last night-fell asleep after dinner, and, when I awoke, was very bummed out about relationship breakups, career and financial failures, etc… Had that “I can’t win” feeling…
Went into meditation to find the purpose of it…
It started as a “rant meditation”, but then I focused on the breath a bit more, and just observed the “ranting voices”.
Felt a great letting go, and a great freedom from the feeling of not “trying to get anything” anymore…
I realized the purpose of this is to do what Jesus said to do:
“Seek first the Kingdom of God, and all these will be added unto you.”
I.e., before I get into a relationship again, really pursue career advancement, etc., I must get my consciousness of my connection and oneness with Spirit really strong- stronger than my desire for these other things!
Today, in my interactions with others, I practiced letting go of wanting to “get something” (attention, affection, approval, etc.) from them, and dropped any expectations of how they should be…felt so much happier, lighter, more appreciative of others, and more open to and aware of Spirit!!!
That’s it! My priority is set! I will practice to develop a super-strong spiritual connection before actively pursuing anything else!
Thank you, God, for the “dark night’ and its purpose of light!!!