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Selfless Service

February 14, 2015

This is one of the practices of the Agape International Spiritual Center. I kind of “got it”, to an extent, but not as much as the other practices – meditation, affirmative prayer, study, fellowship. It was kind of like, “Oh, so I’m going to help fold up the chairs after service, bring a dish to the potluck, etc.?”

Although, when I’ve done things like that, it was really great! But then, it seems like something deeper is needed to be a real practice.

Then, I got it! Everything I do is selfless service! Especially my transformational career! It’s all about my consciousness while I’m doing it!

And then, I really felt a shift!

I’ve been working more on my transformational stuff lately: recordings for the new album, video-recording sections of the new interactive concert event, writing the first draft of the book…and really feeling it more, expressing more full-out, and really enjoying it so much more!

A lot less of the former “work” mindset, i.e., “I want to do this career thing, so I’ve got to do this, and this, and I have to get this done!” Ugh…

But that still creeps in from time to time. And then the other thing – the “I’m not quite ready or good enough, but I’m working on it” mindset! Maybe someday….Yikes!

But when I make this shift – to selfless service (!), I let go of trying to attain something, of trying to become something, of trying to get something (e.g., acceptance, financial reward, recognition), and completely adopt the mindset of “I’m GIVING!”


And proceeding – creating, expressing – from that mindset of giving, the flow of Divine Inspiration is completely opened! There is no more holding back; there is no more wondering if I’m doing this well enough, or trying to do so.

And when that letting go and that complete openness happens, divine creativity happens! Full-on, authentic, feeling-filled expression takes place! And a real gift is given! One that, because of its authentic feeling, and because it’s shot straight from the One, has to be fully given, and fully received by those it is given to!!!!!!

I think I’ve got it now! Time to create!!!!!!



February 14, 2015

Yesterday, I’d been thinking about a situation in my life, and how to proceed. Rather conflicted, going back and forth over options, decisions, pros and cons…


Went to bed. At some point – don’t remember if it was before falling asleep or upon waking up, got a great realization and practiced it:

Spirit’s guided my life so well all along – many, many times when I couldn’t see how things were really unfolding perfectly! So why not let go of this trying to figure things out and make things happen, and surrender it all to Spirit?!!!

So I did!!!

So it was a great deepening of my knowing the meaning of surrender! Not a giving up, not an admission of defeat. Not at all!

This surrender is about giving my life and my situations to Something Higher – to a Greater Knowing, with an infinitely wider perspective and Power than my surface mind!!!

Feels so right! Feels so good! I know I am on the right track to the best!

And so it is!!!


I Do This To Express the Infinite!

October 9, 2010


Played a gig last night. Some holdovers from my past attitudes about playing music: “Oh, I’m cool!”; “People are gonna dig me when I play this!”; etc. – i.e., coming from the ego.


Realized an “attitude adjustment” is in order: in fact, it looks like my attitude in playing music has fallen behind my attitude in other activities! I realized the better attitude to take is “I do this for the glory of God!” Then, I realized that I want to take this attitude in everything I do!


Rather a traditional wording, but the right spirit. Thinking of what Rev. Michael said during the streaming Agape class, his usual emphasis on us being here to express the “Love-Intelligence that governs the universe”.


In meditation this morning, worked with the words, “I’m here to express the Infinite”, and a modified version of my chant: “Infinite Oneness, Infinite Life” (etc.).




I don’t play music, get buff, have a relationship with a woman, etc., etc., to feel good, show how cool I am, get acceptance, etc. I do EVERYTHING I do to express the Infinite! I’m here to fulfill God’s desire for creativity, for expression, through and as me!


Wow, I can’t wait to see how this is going to radically affect how I look at and do everything! I’m feeling the positive vibes, the “incredible lightness of being”, and the big smile on my face already!!!



Giving – A New Way of Feeling About It

January 8, 2010

I’ve been doing a lot of studying of materials from the Agape International Spiritual Center – an online class, and several audiobooks by Rev. Michael Bernard Beckwith. It’s really sinking in, and I’m feeling a lot of great changes happening!

One thing that’s mentioned a lot is “we are here to give our gifts”. Playing a jazz gig tonight, I decided to play with that attitude.

More than ever before, I really felt it! It was a new way to feel about giving, and a much more joyous, empowering one. Before, giving felt “nice”, like “the right thing to do”, “a higher way of living”, etc. Now, playing music with the intention to give, it felt like an acknowledgment that I am empowered, that I am capable, that I am whole, that I have something to give, that I am “overflowing” with good, so I have plenty to spare, and share!

With this feeling, I also felt that I’m beginning to really understand abundance principles, like the Law of Circulation. When I give – when I act from the attitude of giving – I’m declaring to the Universe, “I have- I’m able to give”, and the Universe responds by giving to me. No matter whether I’m giving a lot or a little – by giving, I’m participating in the flow, so I’m in it, a part of it, and the good flows from me, and back to me!


Assurance of the Right Way

January 4, 2010

Went to sleep 1/3/10, after a wonderfully deep affirmative prayer / meditation / visioning session, in which I experienced a profound release and surrender to Spirit, and then “caught” the vision that my spiritual career is to be based on letting go of the surface mind and completely connecting with and focusing on Spirit’s guidance. (So I knew I’d probably awaken to something pretty good!).

Woke up 1/4, with a strong assurance: the paradigm for my work, and for my entire life (!), is definitely set and clear! Every choice, every direction, and every action – indeed, every moment – is now based on Spirit’s guidance!

So this means: no more planning what I “can do”, based on what others have done (although I will still check them out for inspiration!); no more deciding and proceeding based on “what’s the best thing to do” in my career, or life. EVERYTHING, ALL THE TIME, comes from my connection- my oneness – with Spirit: always looking to THAT direction, with everything from planning to deciding whether to accept or decline, pursue or not, to the actual doing of the creative work, etc.

Now the nagging thought, “How am I going to do this? “ (with so many options available, esp. in terms of my transformational career, and continuing spiritual education) is settled: I will let go of all the surface mind chatter, and “tune in” to Spirit, to get that guidance that is always perfectly right.

Doing this, I am assured that my career path, and my life, is unfolding in the utmost beautiful, perfect way, and that all the actions and directions I choose, and the way in which I “do my thing’ is the absolute best, is perfect!!

This is a complete assurance that my live events, my recordings, my writings, my day-to-day (moment-to-moment) interactions – everything – are completely based on that spiritual connection, and are therefore right, deep, inspired, and inspiring!


The Teacher is the Learner

December 22, 2009

I used to think that, in order to teach (whether in the form of classes, public speaking, or writing, etc.), I’d need to be really clear about what I was teaching and have a strong conviction about it.

However, recent experiences giving talks and doing my CD release concert, which included some public speaking, reminded me that the teacher is also the learner. The process of teaching – of communicating and sharing knowledge and / or insights – increases the teacher’s clarity and conviction, by requiring it!

So it’s a beneficial circle- the teaching feeds the teacher’s personal development, and the personal development feeds the teaching!


A New Day – Staying with the Inspiration

November 4, 2009

Waking up, starting a new day, I often get inspired thoughts. Seconds later, I often get a twinge of fear about the upcoming day: so much to do- will I be able to get it all done? What if I mess things up? Will I get exhausted prematurely and not do well after that? Will all the “mundane stuff” I “have to do” leave me frustrated that I “didn’t have time” to get to the really “good stuff” I really “want to do”?

Some days, I manage to let go of these kinds of thoughts and stay with the inspiration. Others, I get distracted from them by activities, but they lurk in the background, often weighing me down.

Today, I got a very strong inspiration- facilitated, I’m sure, by the book “The Power of Decision” by Raymond Charles Barker and the work we’ve been doing with it in a Science of Mind class at Center For Spiritual Living – Windward O`ahu. Last night, we covered the second-to-last chapter in the book, and there was a lot about “not living small”, realizing that we are the means of expression of our Source, which is completely unlimited.

The thought I got was: these fears I get and the limitations they impose on what I think I can do during a given day must be recognized and let go of – it’s vital! I have a Divine Mandate: live to the fullest, express completely, love completely, serve the world completely! This complete living is not possible if I’m tied down by worries, which actually become self-fulfilling prophecies of doom!

I KNOW that I am staying with the inspiration now, because I realize that it – the Divine urge of infinite expression, creativity, love, and life – is so much larger, so much stronger than any fears or worries that might come into my mind! I not only choose to let go of them; I realize that letting go of them and embracing the inspiration is the only possible way, in light of the hugeness of the Divine Purpose!!

Breathing in fully and completely and feeling the joy of complete life, I prepare to start my day, knowing that it is an amazing day, wherein infinite abundance, love, life, and joy express completely through me